"Alternate Assignment"

These were the words on the back of a Reggae bus(equilavent to a taxi in the States) as I was running toward St. George's harbor this morning.
I have been battling midterms for the past 2 and a half weeks. This would account for the reason that I have been behind on my bloggin. A ton of things have happened since the last recording and I will do my best to remember and catch up on the exciting things.
So after my physiology midterm yesterday, I was pretty upset and honestly I still am today as I write this blog. Things did not go as I hoped once again and I am now barely passing the class. Now I am scared out of my mind because I could fail all over again and be sent home this time with a 37,000 loan on top of my already accumulated loan from failing out at A&M. Also I would be losing my dream for the second time except this time there is no alternate move. I would be a complete failure, my second chance was given to me and I still failed myself. I would be at home, with failing grades from two universities, an incomplete boring masters, and then a degree in Chemistry that I would not use. Pretty pathetic... if you ask me... enough to make me feel very sorry for myself.

So God intervened this morning and smacke me upside the head. So back to running and the bas having the words "alternate assignement" written on the back windshield, this might mean something totally diffent that what the driver wanted me to think, but it hit me hard. I am not here for myself and I am not here just to go to vet school and take Physiology tests, I am here temporarily and here to do Gods work no matter what it might be. He sent me here to this little island of Grenada to do work for him, not for myself and my dream of being a veterinarian. It is really hard to swallow and sometime I would like to catch that bus and ride to my alternate assignment, but I really think that it is staring me in the face... my classmates, the professors, my friends. This is a pretty wild and neat concept and I thought I would share it with all of you. Sometimes, God makes things pretty obvious. He lets you know what He is trying to do, you just got to take your blinders off. I put up blinders way to often.
Well, I gotta get run to class.
Again, I love each and every one of you and I encourage you to think about your "alternate assignment" and let it carry you through your day today!